It's been a hard day at work. Feelings of frustration are welling up inside me, partly for the lack of assistance I feel I'm owed in my role, but also at myself for having failed to take the proper actions to ensure that doesn't happen.
I've tried to always live my life by a mindset of "Respect is earned, not given", and along the way the past few months I've become complacent. Realizing this now is having me see the error in my ways, in particular that I've been trying to assume certain responsibilities but without actually developing the work ethic or knowledge that presupposes those responsibilities.
On an unrelated note, my mood has changed drastically in the course of thinking this all through. I don't like attributing my present state to those around me since, I know ultimately, I am the cause and effect behind my emotional state. More often than not, too, I've found that my feelings are often not justified once I've had a chance to let them digest.
I thought about getting rid of this blog and website, cancelling my subscription again, but time and time again I'm finding that it's been very helpful.
Second thoughts should be thought a third time.