I feel very strongly that our life is dictated by limitations, either those imposed upon us by society, culture, law, or other large bodies of power. Most of all, though, I feel that our self-imposed limitations tend to be the most stringent and taxing on our persons. Be they things like a diet which quite literally restricts the things that we consume and gain sustenance from all the way to the kind of persona we should be in certain situations, self-imposed limitations tend to be the final barrier to between our thoughts and our actions.
I've been thinking a lot lately about what it means to have limitations, and within the scope of how I personally try to share my thoughts and feelings, I find that I have set a very distinct limit on myself for the kinds of things I allow myself to put online and on social media accounts.
Miminalism has always been a kind of goal for me, even when I was young and didn't understand what it meant (though, to be fair, I don't know that I have a much more precise understanding, but anyways..). That idea of "minimalism" has since taken root within me and grown into certain thought processes and ways of being that I am quite proud of today; things like owning fewer possessions like clothing, limiting my diet to certain "go-to" foods, and even a minimalist approach to my passion for photography in that I've moved away from owning a dedicated digital camera, to simply shooting, editing, and posting all from my phone.
This same sense of minimalism, which I would consider to be a limitation I've placed upon myself, has found its own place in how I choose to extend my thoughts to the world, specifically the kind of media and social media presence I keep. I'll save a discussion or deeper dive of my photography or fitness personas for another time, but for the sake of this blog, I feel that I've carried this limitation of not posting my "true" thoughts or "true" feelings on the web since they are easily viewed and reviewed. I'd add, if only peripherally, that minimalism plays a part too in that I often try to delude myself into thinking that not posting a lot of things that are personal to me online allows me some sembalnce of privacy.
What I'm slowly coming to realize, though, is that this limtiation upon my ability to share what I think for fear of social awareness holds me back in my ability to express myself. I've never been one to shy away from telling people what I think or believe, given that the situation is appropriate and calls for this. But putting myself "out there" online seems like a much more daunting task. I am, at my core, a very private person. I feel that my emotions are mine, and I highly covet my choice in sharing those emotions. But I want to change that, and I want to develop a dialogue between me and myself, and how I want to do this is to speak to myself in a forum that kind of scares me: blogging honestly.
Excuse this long-winded post all just to say that I want to be more transparent and honest, maybe not right away or at all with my direct, raw feelings and emotions, but at least with my thoughts on life, love, and literature (those three things aren't meant to reflect my current state of mind nor my goal for this blog, they just popped into my head and sounded nice). I want to be able to use this blog as a place for more of my long-form beliefs on the world.
Which is exactly what I will do.