On the need for scheduling

I’ve really been neglecting this page, again. Need to seriously start documenting my life here better. I always have a dozen or so thoughts swimming around in my head that I never seem to get a chance to write down so I’d really like to schedule time each day to take a look at my random scribbles and get something concrete on paper.

Anyways, that’s it for now. Just want to flex my website blogging muscles a bit before they atrophy beyond recognition.


Bullets and Squares

Random thought but it’s occurring to me that I have two potential life-tracking tools at my disposal: my bullet journal and this square space blog.

The BuJo I guess is more relevant for day-to-day personal activities and thoughts, which I will admit I occasionally forget to use and update. On the other hand, this Squarespace blog is my place for longer-form, more in-depth ideas and thoughts.

It feels kind of strange using these two systems in parallel since the kind of things that I would want to try and post in my BuJo are now being logged in this blog. At the same time, this blog allows for some more stream-of-consciousness that my handwriting simply can’t compete with in capacity and speed.

Just a thought about these two personal repositories.

Calorie Tracking and Consistency

I’ve been using MyFitnessPal for the past 6 weeks straight tracking and logging calories. I’ve been trying to keep a log of what I eat from a calorie perspective in order to lose weight but I’m noticing an usual trend with my tracking in that I use my calorie limit per day to inform whether or not I eat as a opposed to a system where I sets a goal for me.

My magic number is 1800kcal a day so I often will eat up to that limit, naturally trying not to go over. The corollary is that I also look to fill up those extra calories if, after logging a day of food, I find that I still have some left over.

I don’t think that this is a good process, though, because it sets me up to always meet that goal, rather than listen to my body and work within those limits, even if it means fewer calories per day.

Not sure what I’ll do about this, I like the consistency of using the MFP app and I’d sooner keep to this habit than try to break it. At the same time, I feel like a “flexible diet” approach is probably the best bet.

Will look to do more research into this.


Validation, Social Crutches

Am noticing that in my never-ending pursuit of the best running and weight lifting routine to suit my goals, I always go back to the same few Reddit posts. Specifically, this one has a thread whose second comment spells out basically my exact approach to lifting while running (two workouts a week with an “A” day and “B” day).

I don’t need to go to this page to tell me stuff that I know already, but I find myself seeking out this page and thread, specifically to validate what I already know.

It’s weird but I don’t find this bad in the way that a person who only speaks to others with similar views and opinions may be detrimental, i.e. a bubble, but I do recognize that my insistence on this form of validation is a kind of social crutch.

I know what I need to do and yet I still seek out sources of information that validate me and my choices. I like to think of myself as someone who doesn’t need this validation or social crutch, and yet I find myself relying more and more on these kinds of things.

What does this say about me?


Try, and Try Again

The longer you go without using your voice, the sooner you forget you have one.

It’s been a while since I’ve last posted, and that’s something that saddens me. I’ve gone back and forth between using this site, keeping it in the background, cancelling my Squarespace account, and all iterations in between. I’ve made countless (read: a handful) purchases of $16 for this site.

I don’t want to say that I’ll stick to this now, and in perpetuity. I just think that I should go with the flow and listen to my heart. God, that sounds really cheesy, but it’s what I feel.

Maybe writing these smaller, bite-sized chunks will make me feel less apprehensive to use the site? Ultimately, I want it to be a place that I don’t feel pressured to use. To achieve that means removing the standards that I’ve tried to hold to myself for this blog and just use it however I want.


5-1-30 and Goal Setting

Learned of this method called 5-1-30, which is a goal setting process. You begin by doubling your age (if you’re 60+, think of your age at 90) and from there think about the things you want to have accomplished by then. At the same time, think about the things that you want to avoid doing at that age. 

From there, the focus here is to consider some shorter term goals to get to that point. Taking from the title, you imagine the things you need to accomplish in 5 years to set you on the pathway to your longer term goals in the first part. Make suer to be specific and measurable goals (for more detail look up SMART goals).

From the 5 year standpoint, look next to plan out what to do over to reach those long term goals in 1 year. Once again, look to plan out attainable and measurable goals. 

The last piece to this plan is to consider what you need to do over the next 30 days to put you on track for your 1 year goals. The focus for this goal setting process is to identify measurable and attainable goals that you set out for yourself over time.

I really like this method because it forces you to consider lofty, ambitious goals far in the future, and seeks to make that pathway more and more realistic by changing and shortening the time period to attain smaller goals as they relate to your current self now. 

I’ll definitely be using this goal setting process for my longer term goals; look out for those post(s?) in the coming days/weeks.